Thank you all for your kind words. I am feeling better, I can walk again and returned to work on Monday. I see the RE on Friday.
Last week I only spotted. I guess b/c I was on bed rest from the fall. But once I got to work I started bleeding, just like an AF. A wave of relief overcame me once I actually started to bleed. I already know the whole spotting for ever ordeal from my 2nd m/c and I don't want to go through that again. I just want to bleed and move on. Sorry if that sounds horrible.
After talking to DH, who finally opened up to me about the losses and why he doesn't get excited when I show him a BFP, we will take the rest of the summer off and start back again in September. The consensus from the few family and friends that know of our journey is I need to live in a bubble or go on immediate bed rest. I don't know if that would help especially that early on, but I don't know what else I can do to help me get to my take home baby. DH wants us to move to a 1st floor apartment so I don't have to worry about stairs. I just don't know.
Do I just have THE worst luck in the world, or is there seriously something wrong w/ me?
I can't believe for a minute, I was ready to throw in the towel. I was ready to say enough, BASTA! But I can't, b/c if I do, then all this would be for nothing. I am not ready to give up on the only dream I have.