Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Don't really have a title...

Thank you all for your kind words. I am feeling better, I can walk again and returned to work on Monday. I see the RE on Friday.

Last week I only spotted. I guess b/c I was on bed rest from the fall. But once I got to work I started bleeding, just like an AF. A wave of relief overcame me once I actually started to bleed. I already know the whole spotting for ever ordeal from my 2nd m/c and I don't want to go through that again. I just want to bleed and move on. Sorry if that sounds horrible.

After talking to DH, who finally opened up to me about the losses and why he doesn't get excited when I show him a BFP, we will take the rest of the summer off and start back again in September. The consensus from the few family and friends that know of our journey is I need to live in a bubble or go on immediate bed rest. I don't know if that would help especially that early on, but I don't know what else I can do to help me get to my take home baby. DH wants us to move to a 1st floor apartment so I don't have to worry about stairs. I just don't know.

Do I just have THE worst luck in the world, or is there seriously something wrong w/ me?

I can't believe for a minute, I was ready to throw in the towel. I was ready to say enough, BASTA! But I can't, b/c if I do, then all this would be for nothing. I am not ready to give up on the only dream I have.

7 comments:

Another Dreamer said...

(*HUGS*) Hun, you are such a strong amazing woman. And I wish we all had answers for why this has happened to us, and why it keeps happening.

I am hoping the appointment goes well, and you know where to find me because I will want details ;)

I think taking a break is a good idea, and I am glad your DH and you had a good talk (*hugs*) I admire your determination.

Carmen said...

Hugs...just know that I'm always over here hoping you get your take home baby. Wish I had the magic wand, magic pill, and magic words to make that happen for you and your DH.

Chhandita said...

((hugs))) take a break..we will be right here waiting for you...

Tiffany said...

Hello....
I was passing through some blogs and came upon yours and it caught my attention, Im sorry about your loss, I cant imagine what you are feeling, Please know I am praying for you, I hope you get what you want. God Bless
Tiffany -

Heather said...

So sorry about the rotten luck - hugs from Heather. Hope everything gets better for you from now on.

JenH said...

I'm rooting for you again!!

Chhandita said...

Hope all's well...just wanted to say hi...