Thursday, April 29, 2010

CD ~ 3 Gettin' the party started

Had my CD3 baseline today. Lining is at 8.8mm so I'll be bleeding a while, which is nothing new. All RPL testing came back negative. That's great don't get me wrong, but that still leaves the big question...why did I lose 3 babies?

I started the G.onal-F today. I'll be taking 150ui/day and go back on Monday morning bright and early. No clomid this time, no reason given just told I wont be taking it.

BUTTERFLIES galore swarming in mah belly!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

CD2 ~ Can you say breakdown?

AF arrived yesterday. I am already clotting heavily. Wonder if this is the tall tell (or is it tell tall?) sign that I have some type of clotting disorder.

I called my RE to tell them it was CD1 and that I need to make an appointment for Thursday for CD3 u/s and b/w. Appointment was made. I then ask them about my G.onal F and they said the paper was faxed to the warehouse for the C.ompassionate C.are program on April 19th. But they have not received the G.onal F yet. Ok...freaking out here.

I called C.ompassionate C.are people and they said nope, no fax received or S my co-ordinator would have been notified and in turn she would have notified me. I called the REs office back and had them refax the paper. She did it while I was on the phone and said it went through. So...all yesterday afternoon and this morning I have been calling the CC program people to verify if the fax was received in the warehouse.

Now I am going nuts, I am not getting an answer so, I asked to speak with someone who is above my co-ordinator. But ....who gets on the phone...S the co-ordinator telling me how she was just about to call me. Apparently the meds were shipped and received by my REs office on April 21st. She gave me the tracking number and everything. Now, I have to call the REs office back...I was afraid that their lunch time answering service would have been turned on already, but I caught them just in time. The receptionist keeps telling me they don't have the meds, that the lady, A, who signs for things only does that she doesn't know where they go afterward and D, the lady whom my meds were attentioned to, is on vacation. So I am really panicking now.

The receptionist said she would have some one look for them again and call me back. Now, I am crying at work, at my desk, sitting in the middle of both my teams, and about to pull my hair out. I called my friend C, who I would like to tell you about and was actually going to tell you about until this whole fiasco, so I will save her story for another day. She was trying really hard to calm me down and get me to stop crying. And then the REs office calls back. They found my meds!!!!!!!!!! Yipee!!!! The very intelligent woman whom my meds were attentioned to forgot to label them with my name. Guess who's not smarter than a 5th grader. I was so relieved, I felt like 20lbs of bricks came off me.

During my hunt for G.onal F, I also called the lab I went to on April 15th. I called them b/c twice I asked my RE if the results came in and twice they told me they were pending. I want to make sure they have the results for when I go there tomorrow. Well, the lab said my REs office had access to the results since April 16th. So she was also going to fax them over. I would feel real nervous about treatment and not having the results...b/c what if something went wrong?

So, looks like I am all set for tomorrow. Holy cow!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Thank you!!!

Thanks for welcoming back into the blogosphere!

I know I have lots to catch up on with everyone, and believe me that's just what I'll be doing while I am on break from school.

Oh! Guess I should let you know what went on while I was away.

In June, we got custody of DH's youngest son R, he just turned 16 a few days ago. We are currently working on getting his youngest daughter K who will be 15 in a few weeks. In March, I started online classes for my associates in Business Admin w/ concentration in Accounting. DSS J whom has always lived with us said I am doing things backwards, career, school, kids. He turned 18 in November and will be graduating HS this June. He wants to be a lawyer.

I sort of got a promotion at work. I say sort of b/c pay wise it's lateral (no pay increase) position wise, I have more responsibilities. My title hasn't changed which I don't mind b/c I like being a 'Financial Analyst'. But my old team merged w/ the team I was under before that one and well, since I am not a 'regular' specialist it is a promotion.

Saturday was my last day of my first semester. I had 2 basic classes Math 101 and English 101. So far I have 100% in Math, I love numbers. English made me pull my hair out and gave me insomnia! So far I have a B+ in English, but am waiting for the grade on my research paper (on types of infertility treatment) for an A. I will be happy w/ the B+ don't get me wrong.

DH and I had some really rough patches after the last m/c but we are in a much better place now. He's just as ready as I am to get the part started.

Ahhhh and on the IF note, just when I was beginning to think I was still broken b/c I did not get AF 2 days after p.rovera as I normally do, I started spotting yesterday afternoon, and still spotting today. Finally needed to add a pad, so hopefully tomorrow is CD1 and I can call to set up my baseline. Wow! It just seems likes it happening so fast now. I am so flippin' nervous!!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

Back from Hiatus...I think...

I think I forgot how to use this thing.

I had to get away from any and everything TTC related. Forums, blogs, websites, my lovely friends...if I didn't and I hope ya'll can understand, I would have gone INSANE. I needed the physical and mental break of it all. I needed to not speak of it and forget that it ever existed. I NEEDED THIS!

Now, we're back in the saddle. I gave 12 tubes of blood for 20 RPL and other tests last Thursday. As of yesterday, my results are still pending. I applied and was approved for the C.ompasionate C.are program from F.ertility L.ifelines (check it out). I will get 1800IU of G.onal-F for free. I took 10 days of provera b/c my cycles have wonked out on me since I gained 20lbs since the last m/c. Now, it's a waiting game...waiting for AF to show so I can make that call for CD3 scan and b/w.

I am scared, nervous, anxious, panicking, and fell as though it's all moving so fast.

I still can't bring myself to post back on the forum I loved so much, or speak to many of my TTC friends w/ or w/o children. I feel like I have to put my swimmies on and take it slow over in the kiddie pool.