Friday, April 23, 2010

Back from Hiatus...I think...

I think I forgot how to use this thing.

I had to get away from any and everything TTC related. Forums, blogs, websites, my lovely friends...if I didn't and I hope ya'll can understand, I would have gone INSANE. I needed the physical and mental break of it all. I needed to not speak of it and forget that it ever existed. I NEEDED THIS!

Now, we're back in the saddle. I gave 12 tubes of blood for 20 RPL and other tests last Thursday. As of yesterday, my results are still pending. I applied and was approved for the C.ompasionate C.are program from F.ertility L.ifelines (check it out). I will get 1800IU of G.onal-F for free. I took 10 days of provera b/c my cycles have wonked out on me since I gained 20lbs since the last m/c. Now, it's a waiting game...waiting for AF to show so I can make that call for CD3 scan and b/w.

I am scared, nervous, anxious, panicking, and fell as though it's all moving so fast.

I still can't bring myself to post back on the forum I loved so much, or speak to many of my TTC friends w/ or w/o children. I feel like I have to put my swimmies on and take it slow over in the kiddie pool.

6 comments:

Carmen said...

Lina...still out here thinking about you. {{{Hugs}}}

Chhandita said...

You were missed swthrt. Rooting for you.

womb for improvement said...

I totally get the need to get away for a while. I hope the break gave you the time you needed and you are ready to start again.

Anonymous said...

hey i understand completely and i have been on a break for a couple of months. i feel your pain hugs.

(Erica) Rebel With.A.Cause said...

Aww.. So glad to see you back sweetie!! Right here cheering for you!!!

Hugs,
Erica (Rebel)

Anonymous said...

You were soo missed, i came back to your blog every so often to see if you would come back. I am so happy that you are and know I have said many prayers for you. Take it slow and know we are there for you.