CD2 ~ Yep

As you can see by the title....last cycle was a BUST.

It was my expectations that it would bust b/c nothing, I mean nothing, went right.

I am thinking I O'd early b/c my LP was way shorter than it has ever been--AF arrived on the morning of 12dpiui. I had my trigger at 1030 am and didn't have my IUI until 46 hours later. I think I may have O'd the night of the trigger. So I am going to say we missed it, not PCOS did it, not my body has failed me yet again, but we missed it. That's my story and I am sticking to it.


Moving on....I am royally pissed. I feel like we wasted our one and only donated cycle. I have about 500iu left over, but what's that really going to do? Rx called in to the pharmacy. 250mg, yes two-five-oh....taken cd 4-8, which is a first for me, and I go in on CD9.

I've got homework and a sick hubby to keep me occupied for the moment....baby dust and sticky dust.

6dpiui ~ What The Eff!!

So I go to the REs, no one knows why I am there...this is all thanks to the freaking dinosaur! So They took my blood. I called them.

HCG negative, trigger is out.
P4 ~ 5.1

WTF! That's barely an ovulation. They are upping my self medicating (they didn't tell me to take it) progesterone of 200mg/day to 400mg/day.

I asked her if the low P4 means I didn't ovulate, she swears it doesn't mean that...but who knows.

I am bummed.

3dpiui

Nothing to report...time is just going by so slow. I have no expectations for this cycle and often find myself looking at past cycles to see what rounds of clomid seemed the best...how many days did i take it, how many mgs, how many follies as a result...etc...after all I did get 2 BFPs from clomid cycles so it's not impossible.

I have no idea what i am going to do for another 11 days!!!!

CD ~ 18 IUI

This had to be THE worst IUI I have ever had.

My regular RE was off, so we had the dinosaur doing it. He could not get the speculum in!! The first one was too thin he said, the second one not long enough, and then the light was glaring and then he couldn't see my cervix, and then he did but couldn't see the opening...i offered to cough for him b/c my regular guy usually tells me to cough. He said not necessary. He got one of those big Qtips and did something and then he was able to see the opening and this was on speculum #3. And there went 66 million soldiers!!!!!! He blamed my size! Can you believe that. 2 years going to that practice and never once did anyone ever make me feel fat or bad about being big, until today. How is it that i have had countless IUIs and PAPs and never ever ever had a problem with a doctor putting a speculum in? I stayed quiet b/c i didn't want him to try to not do the IUI ...ya know...

I had an u/s afterwards b/c i was concerned i may not O. We seen that the soldiers were in place, so at least dino did something right. And then my bigger follies were missing so,i o'd!! Wottie woot! I will start progesterone in a few days and go back next Thursday so they can see what levels are left of the trigger.

EEEEKKKK!!!!

CD 16 ~ Trigger

This happened yesterday...

Lining 9
R ~ 17,14,13,12,11,10
L~ 17,13,12,11,10(3)

We triggered.

Tomorrow - IUI.

CD 14 ~ and away we go

Went to the RE this morning....

And we have.......

R ~ 14 (2), 11 (2) and 10 (2)
L ~ 13, 12, 10 (5)

Finally, something measurable!

E2 dropped to 517 so I'll take 150IU tonight and tomorrow night and then we go back in on Wednesday and are hoping for Friday IUI.

A few post ago I mentioned my friend C. She knows all about what we are going through and has been there for me. She is always positive and trying to keep me calm when I start to go nuts. She is the most awesomest friend I could ask for. Well today I was describing to her what happened at my appointment and she asked me if the follies that don't ovulate will come out....when I go to the bathroom. LMAO!! She had me laughing so so so much!!!! Gotta love her!

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to those who are already moms, moms to be, moms that could have been and moms in waiting!

Yesterday I had a scan. Still full of small follies. Over 5mm but under 10mm I spotted at least 5 on each side. After lowering my G.onal F to 75iu, my E2 still rose from 1700 to 2600. WTF! So yesterday no meds and today only 75 again and back in on monday.

Please pray my cycle doesn't get canceled.

CD10 ~ Waiting Waiting Waiting...

All I have is an 8mm on my left side ...all the others are too small to be considered measurable. I have to keep on w/ the 150IU and go back on Monday, unless my E2 says otherwise. All I have left is 750IU G.onal-F and 300IU F.ollistim. I just hope it's enough.

Bummed out.

UPDATE

I got a VM from the doctor's office and they said to take 75IU tonight and tomorrow and go in on Saturday instead. I have to wait until tomorrow to call and check what my E2 was since they were already closed when I got the VM. I am confused, if I only have one 8mm follie and they grow 2mm a day then it will only be 12mm on Saturday why decrease my dose?

oh and how in the world is my lining 12mm and 3 days ago it was 8.2....how did it grow so fast?

CD7 ~ Quiet Times

I went in for an u/s today. Nothing much to report. My guys are quiet. No measurable anythings anywhere. I have only had 4 days of shots.

My E2 went from 53.4 on CD3 to 133. So, It's moving. What I need to do is stop comparing everything to my Follistim cycle from Sept '08. Wow I can't believe it's been that long already.

So, I keep w/ the 150IU and go back on Thursday.

I hope there's a party going on by then.

PS. AF is still here...ty provera!