CD17 - Visit with the RE

I had an U/S today. My lining is 10mm which means I will still keep bleeding. My ovaries were looked at. My right ovary is quiet. My left ovary has a 16mm follie on it. WTF!!! I then had my blood taken. If I don't get a call I am to have sex on Monday and go back on Tuesday for a looksee at my follie.

So, what are my chances of this follie actually ovulating while I am still bleeding? And there is no chance of implantation b/c I am shedding correct??

I am torn between anger for the bleeding and joy from the follie.

CD15 - AF just won't go away.

Going to see the RE on Friday. Not my RE b/c he's on vaca...but an RE. 15 days and still bleeding this is not normal for me. In all my abnormal AF history w/ PCOS this has NEVER happened to me. A week, 8 days...but 15 is just too much. And it's evil ...it comes and goes. Monday night it was almost gone but I woke up yesterday full of blood. It went away during the morning but came back in the afternoon...by bed time it was almost gone and there was barely nothing there this morning...but it just came back again about two hours ago TMI (lining and all). I'm scared....I am wondering if it's endo and all kinds of things.

CD10 of Break cycle....

Here I am 10 days into my cycle and I STILL have AF. Am I serious, you ask? Yes, I am. I am quite tired of it!!



I called the nurse this morning, she looked at my file and my lining was 3-4mm thicker than normal, I figured my lining was thick and that I would have a very heavy AF. Not a medium at time heavy AF lasting this long....my normal 7 days is enough. I was told if it doesn't let up by Monday or Tuesday, to call so I can been seen for B/W and U/S. I am on a break people, I did not want to step near the office while I was on a break. Please AF I am begging, GO AWAY!!!



Other than that, not much going on. I have jury duty on Monday, which I really don't want to go to. I served 3 years ago. I would rather be at work.



School will be starting soon. DSS will be in the 11th grade. Am getting old...so is his dad!! He already towers us (got that from his mom's side).



Ferrets are doing great. Work stinks like always, but yes, I would rather be at work than Jury Duty. Been listening to some really old music called Freestyle, and it's bringing back my child hood lol.



Almost time to go home. Can't wait.

Oh, good news. My job has opened a gym. It will be ready in September. I am joining. I am very excited. I also am trying to get back on my diet. Have not had any big slip ups all week. My job also sent a survey to see if we want a nutritionist. How awesome!!! I can not wait.

>sigh<

So, I have been spotting since yesterday. My temps dropped and those super sore boobs are no more. I did not test. I could not bring myself to the disappointment. I need a break for my sanity. So all I will be doing is temping. No meds, no OPKs, and just having fun sex not BDing. When I am ready, I will be going back to the RE to start the donated Follistim. I am sorry I have not visited anyone's blogs recently. I am just a lil down and on the weekends I only have my crappy lappy so I can't access blogspot from it...>shrugs<

I cried a lot yesterday and fought with my inner self, but I think a break is needed. I have pushed my body so hard to O the last 3 cycles...double meds, longer and higher doses than norm. I am going to try to get back on my diet wagon b/c since the m/c i have been eating like a hog and I totally know it's all emotional eating nothing more nothing less.

Unfortunately, I am a one trick horse. My life is dull, all I do is go to work and come home. So IF is all I can blog about. If you don't see me it's b/c I dunno what else to write about.

Secrets...and stuffs

I am nosey. Very nosey. Well...maybe more curious to see how other people live and react more than nosey.... I think that's why I like reading blogs so much. It's like reading peoples diaries.

Have you seen this...

PostSecret

I feel like I secretly know millions of peoples secrets. It's great.


Have you seen this too....





Mighty Optical Illusions

Awesome!!! I love this stuff.

Tag!!! I'm it!!!

I was tagged by Turia.

Rules: Answer each question with one word and tag four others to play.

1. Where is your cell phone? home
2. Your significant other? Amor!
3. Your hair? long
4. Your mother? missed
5. Your father? MIA
6. Your favorite thing? internet
7. Your dream last night? forgot
8. Your favorite drink? water
9. Your dream/goal? $
10. The room you’re in? cubicle
11. Your hobby? TV
12. Your fear? death
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? mom
14. What you’re not? outgoing
15. Muffins? blueberry
16. One of your wish list items? Denali
17. Where you grew up? Belleville
18. The last thing you did? reply
19. What are you wearing? clothes
20. Favorite Gadget? anything
21. Your pet? ferrets
22. Your computer? crappy
23. Your mood? ehhh
24. Missing someone? mom
25. Your car? SPIKE
26. Something you are not wearing? belt
27. Favorite Store? dollar
28. Like someone? Sheah!!
29. Your favorite colour? pink
30. When is the last time you laughed? morning
31. Last time you cried? morning

I am tagging Hela, Nadiya, Jenni, and a new comer to the Blogosphere The Big "IF".

Last night J, my Cyster, had her baby boy..J. He was born 8lbs 1oz and 20 in. Congrats to J and N on your new arrival.

Please pray for my other Cyster, Julie. She was admitted into the hospital yesterday @ 34w2d for monitoring of possible pre-eclampsia. We are all hoping to hear from here soon.

TV, oh and I am now in the 1ww!!!

If you knew me IRL, you would tell me I watch entirely too much TV. My life revolves around 8pm!! I am in mourning b/c my DVR broke this weekend and we are supposed to get a new one today...well they tried to deliver it yesterday, but DH was not home. All of my previously recorded items have been deleted….music videos, hours of X-Files, hours of an NCIS marathon, and most recently recorded practically all last season of Eureka and the season premier!! A few movies I recorded from Sci-Fi, and all my reminders. M is non-too happy as all his WWE reminders are now null and void!! He missed Saturday's Main Event b/c of it.

Tonight I get to indulge in SYTYCD--So You Think You Can Dance, which will be over soon. Then what?? It's summer time and all my delicious TV watching is on hold until September. BOOO!!!

What I can't wait to start in the Fall:

PrisonBreak(FOX-Sept 1st) ~ OMG!!!! I am in love. I have not missed an eppie since it started. Wentworth, you are hot!!!!

Bones(FOX-Sept 3rd) ~ I wonder if Bones and Booth got together would the show go kaput?? They have great chemistry.

Fringe(FOX-Sept 9th) ~ New show…commercials make it seem interesting …but we all know how that can pan out.

House(FOX-Sept 16th) ~ OMG is there a doctor in the house…b/c he is more of a psycho than a doctor…but I still love him.

L&O:SVU(NBC-Sept 23rd) ~ Now don’t get me wrong there was a time when I used to be highly addicted all things L&O. But in recent years the other two have
just …slipped away.

Lipstick Jungle(NBC-Sept 24th) ~ Fairly new show …just started last season. I am willing to keep giving it a try…after all Brooke Sheilds is in it.

Grey's Anatomy(ABC-Sept 25th) ~ Come on already!!!! They are driving me nuts together, broken up, together, broken up, rinse and repeat.

Desperate Housewives(ABC-Sept 28th) ~ Do I want to be just like them…NO. Do I enjoying watching them….YES!!!!!

Dirty Sexy Money(ABC-Oct 1st) ~ I guess I didn’t have anything else to fill the slot and it just grew on me.

Private Practice(ABC-Oct 1st) ~ I am so hoping this show picks up. I think Addison is great, but hope she didn’t mess things up by going solo.

Cold Case(CBS-Sundays) ~ Is this coming back for a new season?? I guess CBS just doesn’t post the premier dates LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!

CSI: Miami(CBS-Mondays) ~ I only used to watch CSI, barely watched CSI:NY and NEVER watched CSI: Miami…until one day I fell in love with a red head, there’s no turning back.

NCIS(NBC-Tuesdays) ~ Abby is one of my favorite characters on TV. I did not see the last season b/c other things were on TV, but w/ my trusty DVR I won’t miss an eppie now.

Without A Trace(NBC-Tuesdays) ~ Have watched this show since it started. I miss a few seasons or half seasons but I catch up on reruns.

Cablewise…I am looking forward to Nip/Tuck(FX-Sundays) and Dexter(SHO-Sept 28th). Which means I will have to change my package at home since I do not have premium channels!! lol

So... I am 8DPO -- officially 1 week down, 1 week to go. Am I hopeful...yea sometimes like when my boobs really hurt. Am I devestated...yea sometimes like when my boobs don't seem to hurt as much as 5 minutes ago.

Check it out...

So I wondered over to Blogher and stubbled across The Day the World Stopped. What do you think? Do you think she did or didn't?? I know I am prone to think of ART when I see twins and multiples.

J, a close Cyster, is having her first baby today!!! WOOO!! She is in labor right now and we are all excited for her lil ninja to join us.

CD31 - 6DPO Owies!!!

That's all I can say at the mo'. My boobs are hurting me so much. They hurt when I breath in, they hurt if I cough, if I sneeze. But no no no way will I think more of this than I need to. Right?? During my April cycle...my boobs hurt as well...the nips were as effected as the over all boob ...during my June cycle just my nips were a tad sensative if touched...but OMG!!! I am in pain here folks. I told DH I may not need that boob job after all...SWOLLEN!!!!!

OK, so 6DPO this week will not go fast enough if you ask me. But I am hoping it does.

So anyone else out there in the 2WW with me?? How are you feeling??


ETA: I actually had 4 days of +++OPKs then a negative. SHEESH. Is that normal? First + was equal to the Test line, the next two were blazing and darker and the fourth was equal. The one on Saturday went back to be light.

Finally...

Not much going on. DH is still ill...he vomited last night ...just when I thought things had passed lol bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. Poor guy.


3DPO and 11 more to go...will I make it??

Ps. Yes, I do have PCOS, just not high LH. While I do always have a second line it does not become +++ until I actually O...I just never kept OPKing after a few days before ...So now I am just doing it to see how long it last. lol

ETA: I usually stop OPKing after my u/s after the IUI confirms no more follie. So no point in POAS if I know my egg released.