Tuesday, August 12, 2008

>sigh<

So, I have been spotting since yesterday. My temps dropped and those super sore boobs are no more. I did not test. I could not bring myself to the disappointment. I need a break for my sanity. So all I will be doing is temping. No meds, no OPKs, and just having fun sex not BDing. When I am ready, I will be going back to the RE to start the donated Follistim. I am sorry I have not visited anyone's blogs recently. I am just a lil down and on the weekends I only have my crappy lappy so I can't access blogspot from it...>shrugs<

I cried a lot yesterday and fought with my inner self, but I think a break is needed. I have pushed my body so hard to O the last 3 cycles...double meds, longer and higher doses than norm. I am going to try to get back on my diet wagon b/c since the m/c i have been eating like a hog and I totally know it's all emotional eating nothing more nothing less.

Unfortunately, I am a one trick horse. My life is dull, all I do is go to work and come home. So IF is all I can blog about. If you don't see me it's b/c I dunno what else to write about.

9 comments:

On My Way to Fertility said...

Take a litte break and do a little something nice for yourself. I totally understand.
xoxo

Carmen said...

Hugs to you. Take a little break...to regain yourself...and refocus...so that when you are ready you can come back stronger than ever.

Much love,
Carmen

ps...I found you through Niki's blog :)

Jenni said...

ugggg, I am so sorry. I know how you feel. You do deserve a break and fun sex the DH is always better than BDing. lol. I am right ahead of you on days this cycle, so this time I am praying it is our turn.

Mrs. Barrenness said...

Sorry you're having a rough week. I completely understand about having nothing else to blog...even if I tried, I'm afraid that IF consumes my thoughts. Try to do something fun during your break and take care of yourself.

rescogitatae said...

I'm so sorry.

Taking some time for yourself sounds like a great idea. A chance to just focus on YOU- not the IF you but the whole person.

Big hugs.

I Believe in Miracles said...

I have no words. Just a ***BIG HUG***
I'd echo the comments to focus on finding something else to define who you are - IF is not a fun definition. Hope you get to enjoy a break!!

Kristen said...

I'm so sorry :(

We'll be on the diet wagon together though so pop over if you need some encouragement!

Jenni said...

I just wanted to stop in and tell you how much I love your comments and I miss you terribly. Take care honey.

CG said...

Sorry abt the spotting. Treat yourself well during the break and come back rejuvenated.