Wednesday, May 13, 2009

6w1d

I jinxed myself. I just got back from the RE. You know the appointment that I was supposed to have TOMORROW!! Well my Aries impatient self decided I was going NOW. I had a dream that I was bleeding. I was so afraid to go to the bathroom this morning, but when i finally did....all clear..PHEW!!! I get to work and go to the bathroom....blood! WTF! Just when I thought I could breath just a lil. Only there when I wiped...not bright red, but not pink either. Was a lot at first, but dwindled down before I left work. Yea I called DH he said call RE and after I stopped crying I was able to give the receptionist my name and they told me to come right away.

When we first got there Nurse L comes out and says "I go to Italy and you get pregnant and it's in the right place" . I go to the back, get my blood taken, and then sit in the waiting room w/ DH. Mind you I am embarrassed b/c he did not have time to go home and change so he had dirty greasy mechanic clothes on!!! So the RE sees us in the waiting room, now this is the same guy that I hated b/c of the D&C ordeal, but redeemed himself when he let DH shoot his swimmers during our last two IUIs. He back steps and says to me and I quote "Now don't you go f*cking up this pregnancy! If you do, me and DH are going to take turns beating you up" We got a kick out of that, kinda helped ease the tension...no we were not oftended lol. So Nurse M sees me and says "what the hell last time you left w/ good news, well you'll be alright after the u/s" Yea, I was the only one not optimistic! I was the only one that just knew it was over. When I used the bathroom in the office the blood was now brownish and barely there. So in the u/s room, I couldn't look, I just looked at Dh and he looked a the screen. Then his face changed and he said there it is. Bx3 aka B-cubed is still where he's supposed to be. And he grew. RE is happy w/ the u/s. He refuses to call me w/ the BETAs, maybe that's for the best. No sex, no exercise, no heavy lifting, no vacuuming, not on bed rest, but on 'take it easy' mode. I am still scared. And there is still some brown when I wipe.


Here's BBB, and there is a yolk sac!!! Oh which now means my chances of m/c have went from 15% to 12%. This is going to be a long, paranoid, hypocondriacal 9 mos!!

6w1d

9 comments:

Michele said...

Beautiful! Try not to worry (easier said than done, I know). I had some pink/brown bleeding early in this pregnancy and it went away. Up to 50% of women have some sort of bleeding. I hope yours goes away and you are able to drop at least one thing from the paranoia. (God knows, I have my own paranoia, so I'm not throwing stones!) Love the pic!

a_ghastly_mess said...

girl you sound like me!! o wait im an aries too! well try not to worry which is hard to not do. I am sending good thoughts and vibes your way

Heather said...

So glad BBB is good!!

Hope you are able to get to a point where you can relax (at least a bit) and enjoy this - you deserve this happiness!!!

The Patterson's said...

Glad to hear things are still going well!

Another Dreamer said...

I am really really glad that things are looking good still, even with the spotting scare.

Your doctors comment would have set me off, rather than relaxed me though. It would not be your fault if this pregnancy doesn't work out. I'm just shocked he said that, but I understand he was joking... but still shocked.

Chhandita said...

Whew!! I know what you mean about hypochondriac 9 months..am still living each day with dread... where is our aries optimism?? Hugs sweetheart...lets have our babies and celebrate :)

Mrs. Barrenness said...

Beautiful pic of BBB. Hope the spotting goes away soon so you'll have a little more peace of mind. Hoping and praying for you! Try to take it easy and get some rest.

A Decade of BFNs said...

good news...over 24 hours and no spotting phew!!!!

rescogitatae said...

Huzzah! I know I should tell you to relax, but we all know that's easier said than done. But I hope the bleeding eases off so it's easier for you to cope with it all.

Hugs,
T.