Friday, May 22, 2009

7w3d

How cruel a body I have. To make me think I would have a baby, then take it away from me, only to give it back to me.

This is what we saw on Monday....not much different from last week....

6w6d

I lay in the stirups today, and for the first time i have enough courage to look at the screen, DH stayed sitting b/c I had already told him it was over until the tech said otherwise. Here's what we gots today....

7w3d

It's not going to be a blighted ovum as I thought. There is 2.5mm emby in there w/ a heart flicker. The tech said he was too small to measure the BPM. I am now in u/s limbo....I go back on Thursday.

Fucking Hope, that Bitch...she snuck back in through the back door. I thought I had buried her ass!!!!


I know the odds are against me and slim, but baby bean please pull through this for mommie and papi!!!


PS...does anyone know how I can fix the u/s pics so that the whole thing will show ....i don't like the cut off!!!

17 comments:

areyoukiddingme said...

Wow - ups and downs. I hope that the next ultrasound will have a nice picture of that baby growing as he/she should.

Anonymous said...

Grow, baby, grow! Hoping the ultrasound on Thursday has great results!

[here from LFCA]

Michele said...

I know it's rough but you've got to keep hoping, dear! Look, your little one is beautiful and growing! Sure, he or she has had a slow start, but they are still in the game! Sending you lots of warm thoughts and cant wait to hear Thursday's update.

BigP's Heather said...

FWIW, the entire picture comes through on Google Reader...

Many prayers.

Amber said...

Hope this is a great news for you, and that there will be even better news when you go back!

-c said...

Schwoah. Cool beans.

Jendeis said...

This is such a roller coaster!! Just praying and hoping for you guys.

Mel said...

What a rollercoaster of emotions!Hoping and praying for the very best for you and your little bean. A flicker is wonderful! :)

The Joye of Teaching said...

Yah for hope! :) Crossing fingers and toes for you and little one.

Barefoot said...

Sending all kinds of growing thoughts your way. Go, embie, go!

babydust81 said...

Hoping and praying for the best for you. Take care. I know it is hard but keep the hopes up okay.

Once Upon A Time said...

Sending good thoughts your way and hoping for the best for you.

Orodemniades said...

Oh darling, I'm still hoping and praying for you. I hope you don't mind...but I'm going to stay positive for you.

Liz said...

Oh god. I'm really hoping for you.

AnotherDreamer said...

I am so hoping for you... maybe just a slow start...

I also wonder if maybe they're not seeing it well, like it implanted in a weird spot or you have a tilted uterus (It does happen, I hear, where they can't get a clear shot of the embryo and think it's a BO instead of a viable pregnancy. And they just couldn't see it well enough early on. Just a thought.)

I know, I know. Hope can be a bitch.

But I am hoping for you. I really am. Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

Wow, you are really being put through the wringer!

I will keep everything crossed that the next u/s shows that bub is settled in and growing nicely.
T.

C said...

Hope you are doing fine babes...